For months now I have had trouble finding the words I wanted to share and missing the encouragement from readers of my blog when I write more regularly.

As readers are aware, my kidney transplant from 1987 lasted until September of 2018.  Then I resumed dialysis after a wonderful interruption that lasted 31 years. (mental jig). Now my week includes dialysis three times a week, each lasting about 4.5 hours.

me doing hemodialysis

How easy it is to sail with the wind behind you,  that wind is silent and strong; the wind of small activities that push me away from the keyboard. Activities like a little cleanup, a small walk, eat a snack, or even reading a book.

Today I decided to sail against the wind, but not straight into the wind, that doesn’t work. In order to get upwind, I need to zigzag or I can’t overcome the downwind push.

I assume this is the struggle we all face but some of us are more disciplined and actually  accomplish through discipline everything we desire everyday. I have never learned to be that disciplined. I have learned the benefit of lists.  If I make a list, not a mental list, a written list where I can cross off tasks one by one;  that works well for me.

I also need to avoid traps.  Traps are activities that consume time and feel like I am doing something but I am not really.  Television is a big trap, so on days I want to accomplish something, I try not to turn it on during the day.

Fresh air and exercise are desirable activities for me as I endeavour to remain healthy to receive a new transplant.  This has been an amazing mild winter and all winter I have managed to ride my bike albeit I am so bundled up I look like a ninja.

I also have been doing some walking along the lakeshore or inside the hockey rink if the wind outside is too bitter.

Today I jumped to the keyboard, avoided the lure of reading (and deleting) of email and decided to quickly create a post to begin 2019.  Yes I do know today is February 1 (blush).

My desire is to stay connected to readers, to share comments with readers, and continue where this blogging leads. It would be exciting to sign on one day to share happily that I have received a new transplant.

I look forward to resume spending time each day reading and commenting on other blogs and hopefully posting a few blog posts of my own. It’s up to me to move against the winds that distract me so that I accomplish what I desire.

Thanks for reading 🙂